that is the question.
20 years ago, 1o years ago, today... i still don't know. its just so hard to be true to yourself, especially when around you, the people have different perceptions and it might not be who you think you really are.
its impossible to stay unaffected by their expectation, its easy to loose sight of yourself. i can't really say that they are wrong, but can't say its the real me either, its just another me.
its undeniable that i scare little children with my smile and i don't care to say good morning every damned morning. i'm moody, bad tempered and unfriendly. if you don't like it, stay away from me. leave me alone...i don't go around bothering you right? chirpy and sunny people pissed the hell out of me in the morning, so i don't hang out with them. its as simple as that.
sometimes i laughed too loud, too sarcastic, too rude and too blunt. i have OCD tendencies. i'm very verbal when it comes to the things i want. and i don't like what i don't like, i can't helped that! if i don't like you, you'll know it cos i won't pretend anything.
i'm selfish and i'm just about me, i don't make excuses about that. i hang with the guys, why is that such a big issue, i just don't get it. i like guys, duh!
so what is this post all about? seems like i'm trying to justify myself ... shit and i just said i didn't care what you think... heh. so, i don't give a damn huh? so be it. i won't loose to you.
who am i when i go home? yes, who am i really ... i want to know too.
20 years ago, 1o years ago, today... i still don't know. its just so hard to be true to yourself, especially when around you, the people have different perceptions and it might not be who you think you really are.
its impossible to stay unaffected by their expectation, its easy to loose sight of yourself. i can't really say that they are wrong, but can't say its the real me either, its just another me.
its undeniable that i scare little children with my smile and i don't care to say good morning every damned morning. i'm moody, bad tempered and unfriendly. if you don't like it, stay away from me. leave me alone...i don't go around bothering you right? chirpy and sunny people pissed the hell out of me in the morning, so i don't hang out with them. its as simple as that.
sometimes i laughed too loud, too sarcastic, too rude and too blunt. i have OCD tendencies. i'm very verbal when it comes to the things i want. and i don't like what i don't like, i can't helped that! if i don't like you, you'll know it cos i won't pretend anything.
i'm selfish and i'm just about me, i don't make excuses about that. i hang with the guys, why is that such a big issue, i just don't get it. i like guys, duh!
so what is this post all about? seems like i'm trying to justify myself ... shit and i just said i didn't care what you think... heh. so, i don't give a damn huh? so be it. i won't loose to you.
who am i when i go home? yes, who am i really ... i want to know too.
