face forward vs standing still

sometimes i wish
i could freeze time
and just be in the moment.
but thats .... not possible,
the time flows surely.
only in one direction.

more and more
these days i feel the passage of time
weights heavily on my mind,
it constantly reminds me
of the things that i've left behind,
the things that i couldn't let go,
things that i wish was different

more and more
looking back at the past
and thinking
what could i have done to make things .... happen.

happen ...
sometimes i feel like life just happen.
i have a choice, but not really.

even as i look back
i am facing forward
i'm walking forward
it seems like standing still
is no longer possible.

i have a choice, but not really.